Chickenpox is a highly contagious illness caused by primary infection with varicella zoster virus (VZV). It generally begins with conjunctival and catarrhal symptoms and then characteristic spots appearing in two or three waves, mainly on the body and head rather than the hands and becoming itchy raw pockmarks, small open sores which heal mostly without scarring.

It was December 05, the worst Christmas ever! I was 22 then, a bad age to get hit with chickenpox. I kept telling my friends here in Cebu of how ugly my face was and how I felt so disgusting. How I was looked upon with disgust (sigh), I didn’t even want to look at the mirror. I was so angry and frustrated at that time because it was like God was punishing me. I’m one of those people who take really good care of their faces so my face was my pride…then comes the Chicken Pox.

When I lost my phone back then, I thought I also lost the evidence that I did get chicken pox. Thank God I found the disk where I backed up most photos from my phone before.

I never thought my face would ever get back to that state it was before the scabs and blisters but it did. You can’t even tell I had chicken pox. EXCUSE ME FOR POSTING MY UGLY PIC but I’m doing this so that people will take chicken pox seriously and to show that you can get this illness at an adult age and still rise above it more beautiful!

After what seemed like a week of incessant coughing due to the dry cough caused by the bad weather, Bagyong Frank to be more specific; I finally got rid of it. Solmux didn’t really work for me but Robittusin did. Plus of course the power of prayer!

I feel terrible guys. It’s a bad case of flu, I’m really hot and with that I don’t mean my libido is shooting up the roof. To add to that, I’m all alone because dada is off to work tonight. I hate this feeling.

The weather is really getting into me.
I'm sick, sick, sick.
Thats is why I have not been online much these days.
Grrrrr...
I want a cup of hot cocoa.
I want to go home.

So there, I don’t know if you guys understand any of that in face value coz I sure didn’t. It easily made sense when the kindly doc explained it to me though. Some of the tubes in my right kidney are mildly swollen it’s more likely coz of number 1. infection. She gave me a prescription and the discomfort should go away in a week. I could post the ultrasound images but, but they’re very uninteresting so I’d rather not.

I was really hoping they would find something. I know I should be happy I’m healthier than most people. But sometimes I just want to be sick, want people to fuzz over me, want to stay in a hospital for a week or so. Does that make me crazy?

For the past 4 days now, I have been plagued with this annoying pain in the lower right part of my tummy. At first I thought I was just constipated so I bought Dulcolax and washed the 4 tablets off in one setting. That eased out my bowel but the pain didn't go away, it was just there silent and hidden but I feel it. If I make sudden movements, take a deep breath, laugh or do anything that would make the muscles of my abdomen constrict, the pain pierces me as if to remind me that it is omnipresent. We went to Biopath to have this checked and the kind doc can't give me any prescriptions until further testing is done. I'm scheduled to have an ultrasound later at 07:30.
I can't say I’m scared, I’m more of excited really. There is this crazy part of me that wishes they find something. Oh well, till them I’m just a slave to this pain with no name.